Old barns hold more than a rich history sitting on their warped wood. They hold stories, love, memories, and more. What happens when they fall? Where does all the goodness go?
I had no idea a barn could fall down to show me things I never saw before. The things it has been blocking. The things that have always been there but now you finally see.
I was about to go out on the porch and dig into God’s word to clear my mind when I heard the strangest ticking/crashing sound. I went to the porch door peered out and the barn was tipping back the whole entire thing.
After an intense 30 seconds of tipping while I’m screaming for my husband- not sure if it was panic or for him to watch the thing tumble. It crashed down in the middle the sides everywhere.
Nothing like we thought it was going to do. Isn’t that how life is?
The first thing I needed to do after all the nasty dust cleared was check for all the barn cats. We have four barn cats and one kitten who love the old barn. Isn’t that worst feeling on the farm? When you know the reality of death with animals is a daily thing and gearing yourself up for what’s to come.
All cats were okay. We moved our flock of chickens out into the new barn only two months ago. We had a feeling it was going to fall.
The cleanup of the barn is a lot. I knew it would take my husband a good few years to clean it up. Literally. He doesn’t like to ask for help, and he does like a project.
Two weeks passed of him going out and pulling off barn wood and burning wood and we realized enough is enough. It’s time to let it go.
Our neighbor mentioned to us having the fire department come and burn the entire thing.
I didn’t hesitate to say, Yes! My husband did. There’s sentiment in a building that was created so many years ago.
There is a hope of could we get money for the barn? As we get older we are able to sift through decisions that cost us time or money.
Sometimes in life God is asking us to do something. And in those moments when we have clarity we see what it is he is asking us to do and we proceed. Until feelings come up.
If he is asking us to go all in to the new situation, we may hesitate a little. We may say, “Well I’ll stop doing this and this for sure, but this one, well what harm is it doing?”
Or we may say, “I’ll get rid of this and that, but I’ll hang on to these couple items.”
When really God is asking you to trust his entire plan. When he says to you, “Get rid of it all.” Don’t stop midway.
I believe in certain situations when God is asking you to go forward in a difficult circumstance it’s so outside our comfort zone, we as humans grasp for some sort of reality and control.
By choosing to hold on to a few more pieces of the barnwood, or trying to salvage pieces we have no idea why, we lose out on all the other summer activities. Why? Because we will be too busy reaching for our own control.
We will feel content and satisfied in that moment while we reach for those barn wood pieces. It will still take weeks to go through the entire barn and pull out the pieces we think we need.
And in that time we could have been enjoying the blessings God had in store. Not to say those blessings won’t come. Do we honor a loving God or what? They will, but because of our own choice and control we delayed them.
I’m ready to completely trust in God’s goodness and plan. I’m ready to give up my control and the comfort of resting in feelings to His Plan. I’m reminded of past times of taking the step out of my comfort zone for His Plan and loving every minute past the the step of fear.
I want to remind you of those times you felt the blessings of God in such a clear way you immediately had to give him all your praise. Hold on to those moments. Clear away the thoughts that start to ping at your heart saying “Was it really God?” Yes.
Because, “God can literally do Anything.”
Trust it. Believe it.